Patient Birthdays

Saturday

Today, a very dear patient of mine celebrated their birthday with us at the hospital. Unfortunately, I have celebrated many patient birthdays in the hospital. At least, they are surrounded by people who love them!

This evening, my patient had loads of cupcakes that their family had brought in. I couldn’t leave the room without grabbing one. I decided to ask Amy if she would split them with me.

This is always a trouble, when patients and families give you food. You hate to say, “no,” so you take it. Even when you do say, “no,” they continue to insist, and you take it anyway. My eating had been great all day so I felt little,but some, guilt about splitting cupcakes with my one of my girlfriends for a patient who means so much to me.

It was a nice sweet treat that worried me about spiraling into a cupcake frenzy. Both were vanilla cupcakes, one from a bakery around their home, with cream cheese frosting, and the other, a homemade one with cookies n’ cream icing. With my love of oreos, I snagged the cookies n’ cream cupcake and called dibs on the mini oreo topping it! Yum!

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Backing up bit, breakfast was a smoothie bowl. Today is National Strawberry Cream. I feel like its kind of an incompletely titled holiday but nonetheless:

Strawberry Cream Protein Smoothie

  • 1 strawberry yogurt
  • 1/2 to 1 scoop vanilla protein
  • frozen strawberries
  • guar and xnathum
  • water
  • ice

I topped mine with Special K Protein cereal for crunch, at first. But then, I realized that freeze-dried strawberries were an awesome topping, too!

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Dinner was a bowl of soup, topped with salsa, and a side of celery sticks for snacking. The meal was paired with half an oreo cupcake!

I’m usually not a fan of clerking, but tonight was great because we had tons of discharges and I kept busy for majority of the night!

Sunday

With another shift of work ahead of me, I enjoyed  a yummy coffee protein bowl in honor of National Coffee Day! I actually was a coffee fiend, ironically, all day!

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The shake was a blend of Cafe Latte mix, spinach, fresh raspberries, CPB2, and SF raspberry and Kahlua syrups. To top it off, I crumbled a quarter of a Gnu Espresso Chip bar (I’m so bummed this flavor is discontinued). I love having that ability to chew, not just drink my shakes. Plus, it makes the shake so much more filling and is also a combo of chocolate and coffee.

I grabbed a cup of coffee before work, and headed off to my unit. It was another great night on the unit. It was another night of filling (Not So) soup and celery sticks. With this experimentality of mine, I tried adding a little honey mustard and BBQ sauce from the caf. It actually gave the soup a really nice flavor- almost a southwestern inspiration.

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Right before dinner, I was surprised how bad I wanted another cup of coffee. Its amazing how tastes change as you age. I was never a coffee drinker until high school- hot tea was always my thing. The only time I would drink coffee was to feel like my dad. Now, I actually am a coffee addict!

I can still remember my parents ordering a cheesesteak with friend onions, and sitting there trying to pick out all the little slivers with my fingers. Or picking off the onions and peppers off a sausage sandwich. Or Thursday Wing nights, when dad would bring home hot wings, I would wash off the sauce before eating them. Now, it seems like every day is started with a cup of the good stuff, almost every meal had peppers or onions, and hot sauce is always my go-to condiment!

They say our bodies change about every 7 years… maybe thats the reason our taste buds change, too!

WP_004058Speaking of changing tastes, I never thought I’d enjoy Cajun Trail Mix. I mean. everyone loves trail mix, but Deb, one of our nurses, brought this bag of trail mix in. I was getting hungry and gave it a try. Those butter roasted peanuts make it! That salty, sweet and crunchy combination of all the ingredients makes this stuff hard to resist!

Getting home, and having worked on the floor for my shift, I was surprised by how hungry I was. I actually would up eating a whole head of romaine lettuce! (I’m like a rabbit.) Some fabulous Rainbow Goldfish joined the party, too.

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I can feel the wave of exhaustion rushing over me and I am hoping to have a relatively early start tomorrow. With that, I say goodnight!

Mean and Green

I spent the remainder of last night awake! I didn’t fall asleep until 130am or so. Oh well! At least I came up with delicious ideas for this week’s meals. It began this morning with a change of pace from my usual shake. It was also a good morning, as I was able to sense hunger, again!

I’ve been craving quinoa for weeks now, but with the madness going on in my head, I couldn’t get myself to eat it. Alas, I microwaved Amy’s Light & Lean Quinoa & Black Beans bowl. Meanwhile, I whipped up some egg whites, for myself, and a sunny-side up, for Frank! Frank and I really enjoyed this. We are both huge fans of black beans! Plus, we got a boost of protein and fiber bright and early to start our week! Yum!

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WP_003806I’ve planned today to see green! Not as in envy, but as in E-A-G-L-E-S, Eagles!!!! Eagles/ Redskins game baby! Dad and I are all about the green, but mom won a bet at work like 20 years ago on a Skins game, and has been a fan ever since. Silly woman!

To get on my game face, I whipped out my Eagles jersey to rock for a day of errands.

After unpacking the groceries, I make another batch of Bundo Broccoli Salad, since the first batch went so quickly neither Frank nor Barry got a taste.

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Afterwards, I was feeling tired but couldn’t sense if it was due to a lack of eating. After all, it was 2pm and I ate my filling breakfast around 10am. I decided to whip up a super green shake! Its one of my favorites!

Pistachio Ice Cream Shake:

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  • 1 to 2 scoops vanilla protein powder
  • lots of spinach!
  • 1/8 to 1/4 tsp almond extract
  • water
  •  ice
  • shelled, unsalted pistachios (optional)
  • xanthum and/or guar gum (optional)

After my last few shake bowls, I’ve rediscovered my love for ground flax and chia seeds, so to play off the nuttiness of the pistachios I added both to today’s bowl!

This held me over for hours! I attempted a nap before Zumba, and, sadly, it just didn’t happen. When I got up after an hour, my mom took one look at me and said, “You look tired. I don’t think you should go to Zumba.” I felt guilty not going, since I didn’t go last week, but I truly was tired. I then spent the next few hours working on a new recipe for you!

If at first you don’t succeed, try and try, again. Although, I wasn’t hungry, mom was and we kicked off our first Monday Night Football of the the 2013-2014 season!

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I prepared a plate of crudites, featuring scallions, sugar snap peas, green beans, celery, and baby carrots. I served it with Honey Mustard, blue cheese dressing, and PB. We split one of my favorite personalized pizzas, VitaPizza Cheese and Tomato. Mom and  I also split a strawberry daquari, topped with a dollop of fat free Cool Whip.

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I was not hungry, tonight, but had tons of nervous energy and filled up on veggies. No harm in that…

After the Eagles started kicking some serious butt, mom went into a sore mood and said, “That’s it. I’m going to bed.” I, now, find myself, here, with you, reminiscing and working on yet another new recipe for you.

Sweet Green Dreams!

Refrain Running

Last night, dad and I watched another Redbox called Not Fade Away. I picked it because it was about music and it had James Gandolfini in it. I dug the music but the movie, itself, was so-so.

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Also making an appearance was the Chocolate Peanut Butter Arctic Zero with fat free whipped cream, jimmies, broken fat free pretzel sticks for a salty crunch, and a sprinkle of  Chocolate PB2. I love that I can eat this and not have an anxiety attack about it! Arctic Zero, you are a blessing to all those in eating disorder recovery!

After dropping Barry’s dinner off to him at work, I arrived home not being able to take my eyes off the last fuji apple. I sliced it up and enjoyed the slices with Be Well Nutella sandwiched between them.

Utter Frustration

Despite all my yawning and being in bed by 10, I did nothing all night, but lay there- completely awake! I tried counting sheep, deep breathing, stretching, and even massaging pressure points to relax. Nothing worked! I was too tired to study, too tired to talk or open my eyes… I was so frustrated I wanted to scream! But I was too tired for that too.

Eventually I gave in and whipped out a pad if paper and worked on a few new recipes. By 4 am, my belly was growling! I tried to ignore it but now I know what time my food is digested by and why I’m hungry in the morning.

I mosied into the kitchen. My immediate reaction was to head to the MagicBullet, but since it was 4am, I thought that might be a bit inconsiderate to others actually sleeping! I grabbed a granola bar, which I enjoyed. But suddenly, I was hit with eating disorder anxiety. Just peachy!

I hate laying down after eating, but I became overwhelmed with fatigue after eating my Kashi and passed out until being awoken 3 hours later by a serious of noises. First, Bunny was meowing incessantly, so I got up, made sure he had food and fell back asleep… briefly, that is, until I was awoke by a claw scratching at my foot…

Next came a wake up call… apparently my little brother over slept and Frank was yelling to his room  to get up! Well, I’m up!

I text dad to see if he wanted to take a shake to work so I threw half a banana in with a  scoop of almond butter and Be Well Nutella, and 2 scoops of Herbalife Cafe Latte. Very tasty!

Around 11am, I whipped up brunch for Frank and myself. Franks shake included Cafe Latte Shake mix, chocolate shake mix, Be Well Nutella, Almond Butter, and sugar free Torani coconut syrup to make a Pseudo-Almond Joy.

After Barry’s fascination with the Blueberry cheesecake shake from our Denny’s Breakfast menu, I was in the mood for a cheesecake shake, myself. Returning to the good ol’ shakes, I threw together a coffee and a Mixed Berry Cheesecake:WP_003304

  • 1 Tbsp sugar free fat free Cheesecake pudding mix
  • 1 scoop vanilla shake mix
  • 1/4 cup fresh blueberries
  • 1/2 cup Welch’s Antioxidant frozen Mixed Berry Blend

WP_003305I like to add fat free graham crackers to my cheesecake shakes, but this morning I added about 1/4 cup multigrain Cheerios on top to give me a crunchy aspect. It worked out great! I always feel so much more satiated when I eat my shakes with a spoon… its probably all in my head…

In an ultimate procrastination mood, I did a few things around the house. I finally decided to call work and see what the unit looked like and was told I would be on the desk. Well, after my mini anxiety about the granola bar, and the recent knowledge that I would be sitting for 8 hours, I decided I needed to feel somewhat accomplished.

Frank found an old picture of his dad and some family friends. The edges were starting to brown and get tattered-looking, so I grabbed the picture and took a little brisk walk, about 1 mile round trip, got a copy and enhancement made, and returned with it framed. He really liked it!

I’m always happy when I can make others smile:)

FYI: August 1st began National Sandwich Month. I’m kicking it off with a left over meatloaf sandwich! Holla! I grabbed the last slice of Honey Mustard Crusted Poultryloaf, threw it on a slice of multigrain with BBQ sauce, and headed to work with my NCLEX book in hand. I must say, the loaf was even better the next day!

As I arrived at work, I stopped by the caf to grab a drink, only to be greated my blueberry pies. Proud that I kept I walking, I came onto my unit to find a pile of temptation in the break room…

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Look away! While at the desk, I could only think of the mini blueberry scone… I cut a little piece off and walked away. Thank God! My plan was to drink lots of fluid and chew gum to keep my mind off the thought of a pastry! I ran to the caf to grab dinner for some busy nurses and grabbed some cucumbers and the like, along with a SF chocolate pudding. I love chocolate pudding with crumbled grahams! So far so good.

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One of the girls had brought peppers and cherry tomatoes in from her garden so I grabbed a few tomatoes to snack on. Finding some salsa, I decided to snack on the peppers. They looked like habeneros…

I guess I was feeling pretty ballsy or that the salsa what act as a coolant, because I bit into that thing like a champ. HOT PEPPER!!! I had to grab a drink and blow my nose… not ssuch a smart decision on my part.

With my good intake for the day, I cut a 1/4 of one of the Devils Food Crumb donuts as a chocolate treat. Damn it, Entenmanns! Why do the crumbs taste so good?!!?

I’m a really crumby person…

I have a problem with crumbs! Like I’ll be that weird person that eats thecrumbs left in the donut box, just so I can feel like I ate a donut…. Despite, still being 500 calories under what I alot myself, I still was having major calorie anxiety!

I wish I could figure out why? Is there something else manifesting itself as calorie anxiety? Am I nervous about the upcoming NCLEX? Is that why I’m not sleeping? What is going on with me?

Refrain Running

Not, refrain from running! Refrain Running. Music is very important to me. In fact, one of my first memories with my dad is him singing (he is a fantastic singer, by the way) and dancing with me. For those of you unfamiliar with the term, a refrain is a part of a song, like the chorus… the part that gets repeated in between the verses…

On my brief, but most needed, run yesterday, I came up with the term “Refrain Running.” I know the right music sets the tone for my workouts. For instance, I have a difficult time running to slower songs, but some up beat songs have an off beat which throws off the sequence of my run. It sounds silly, but its true! Like Thrift Shop by Macklemore and Ryan Lewis.. Ilove that song, it pumps me up, but I have a hard time running to it because the beat makes me want to strut down the street like I’m cool or something. Haha!

Anyway, with this in mind, I noticed that I run during certain parts of songs, and power walk during other parts, creating a great interval routine! Here are some songs I realized work well with this concept:

  • Pitbulll- Hotel Room Service
  • Rooney- When Did Your Heart Go Missing
  • Adam Lambert- If I Had You
  • Ludacris ft. Pharrell– Money Maker

I’ll add to this list as I come across these songs, but its a great way to coordinate intervals into running without using a distance tracker or an app.

Lastly,

WP_003306I have noticed that my hair has gotten so much thicker! And with my new hair growth, new bangs, well, fuller bangs! My mom was a hairdresser so I’m relatively savy on trimming my bangs, so snip, snip, and viola! I Love it!

This lead me to this thought:

With new health, comes new hair! 

Meatloaf Mania

This morning began with a girl jumping on top of me, tickling me and asking me out for breakfast. After some coaxing, Maggie, her boyfriend, Barry and I headed off to Denny’s. I haven’t been to a Denny’s in probably 10 years so I looked up the menu on the drive. The most amazing pancake breakfast off the Fit Fare menu caught my eye, leaving me craving this meal: Banana Pecan Pancake Breakfast!

“Glazed pecans cooked into two hearty wheat pancakes and topped with fresh banana slices. Served with two scrambled egg whites, two strips of turkey bacon and a side of warm syrup. Fit Fare® Lean: Under 15g of fat. Fit Fare® Fiber: Over 8g of fiber.”

What a surprise when I clicked the nutritional facts and found this so-called “fit” menu item was 750 calories! 750 calories is NOT fit, Denny’s!  I knew it was too good to be true! But at least I can make them at home 😀

In the end, after endless time spent weighing my options, I decided on the Fit Fare Omelette, minus the cheese.

“Egg white omelette with spinach, mushrooms, freshly made pico de gallo and shredded Cheddar cheese. Served with two slices of turkey bacon and seasonal fruit as your side choices. Fit Fare® Light: Under 550 calories. Fit Fare® Protein: Over 20g of protein.”

Barry made his own pancakes, Blueberry banana, with a side of eggs, hash browns, and bacon.

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Marie’s Meatloaf. How can I describe mom’s meatloaf?

More More More! Give me! I’ll fight you for it! Get back! I’ve got a fork and I’m not afraid to use it! 

Yeah, something like that…

My mom makes the best meatloaf I have ever had (mmmm, especially the butts, of the ends, of the loaf), so the last time she made it, I plugged it into MyFitnessPal… full fat block cheddar cheese, 85/15 beef, bread crumbs…

Needless to say, I needed to try my hand at it. I’ve recreated mom’s loaf using extra lean beef and it still rocked. Sunday, I recreated it using a ground poultry blend, fat free cheese and Fiber One cereal bread crumbs.

The magical thing about meatloaf is that the possibilities are endless! In the past, I’ve thrown in vegetables, sauces, meats… literally, anything my kitchen had…

The cool thing about my mom’s meatloaf: no condiments required. All the flavor is in the loaf!

Basic Bundo Poultry Loaf

serves 8

  • 1 lb 98% fat free ground chicken
  • 1 lb 93 % fat free ground turkey
  • 2 1/2 Tbsp onion soup mix
  • 2 1/2 Tbsp Shake n Bake BBQ glaze, powder
  • 2 Tbsp Fiber One Original bran cereal
  • 1/4 cup fat free shredded cheddar cheese
  • salt and pepper

Preheat the oven to 325 . Using a Magic Bullet, or other processor, grind the cereal until fine. Combine all ingredients in a bowl. Shape loaf.

Either store in the freezer, wrapped in plastic wrap and foil, or bake.

To bake, wrap in foil, and puncture holes at the bottom to allow for fat drainage. Bake for 1 hour. Carefully open the foil and expose the loaf and return to the over to bake for an additional 20-25 minutes, until golden brown.

Nutrition per 4oz serving:

Calories: 172, Fat: 5.6g, Sat. Fat: 1.2g, Cholesterol: 78.1mg, Sodium: 412.2mg, Carbs: 5.7g, Fiber: 0.8g, Sugar: 1.9g Protein: 24.5g

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The Basics

Mustard Crusted Bundo Poultry Loaf

serves 8

  • 1 lb 98% fat free ground chicken
  • 1 lb 93 % fat free ground turkey
  • 3 Tbsp onion soup mix
  • 2 Tbsp Fiber One Original bran cereal
  • 1/4 cup fat free shredded cheddar cheese
  • 4 Tbsp Bundo Honey Mustard Sauce, separated, plus more, if wanted
  • salt and pepper

Preheat the oven to 325 F. Using a Magic Bullet, or other processor, grind the cereal until fine. Combine all ingredients, and only 1 Tbsp honey mustard, in a bowl. Shape loaf. Once shaped, brush 2 Tbsp honey mustard sauce over all sides of the loaf. Wrap in plastic wrap and refrigerate or freeze, with a wrapping of foil, until ready to bake.

To bake, wrap in foil, and puncture holes at the bottom to allow for fat drainage. Bake for 1 hour. Carefully open the foil and expose the loaf. Brush the last 1 Tbsp pf honey mustard and return to the over to bake for an additional 20-25 minutes, until golden brown, at 360 F.

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Something to remember: ground turkey, and especially ground chicken, will not brown like ground beef!

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Nutrition per 4oz serving:

Calories: 177, Fat: 5.6g, Sat. Fat: 1.5g, Cholesterol: 75mg, Sodium: 25mg, Carbs: 4.5g, Fiber: 0.8g, Sugars: 2.8g

After slicing up the meatloaf, I decided to brown the sides of the slices in a pan and a brush more of honey mustard! I just love that sweet and spicy mustard!

After steaming up some broccoli and topping that with garlic, I threw another surprise on the kitchen table! People were raving about how yummy the garlic mashed potatoes were, which I topped with fat free cheddar an some real bacon crumbles! My dad couldn’t believe it when I told him it was cauliflower!

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Garlic Mashed Cauli

With the leftovers, I packed up dinner for when mom gets home from work, and since Barry is working night shift, I made a meal for him. I also made dad a meatloaf sandwich for lunch tomorrow with Bundo Honey Mustard Sauce and BBQ sauce! Can you say, “drool-worthy?”

I just thought about how good these loaves would be with a fat free Monterrey or Pepper Jack…

MMMMM….. See meatloaf is magical! You can dream it into anything!

Bundo-ized Mama’s Mustard

The decision? Stay awake.

Well not so much stay awake of sleep, as relax and let what happens, happens. After running a quick pit stop, I arrived home around lunch time. Keeping it simple, and only having a bit of an appetite, I repeated yesterday’s Be Well Nutella on toast, this time with a bit of PB. (Life is always better with peanut butter.)

          Except for that one time when I was refeeding and ate half a jar…

After finalizing the post, I fell asleep watching the Harry Potter marathon. It was the perfect nap- right about an hour- enough to refresh and regroup.

Since I had fallen asleep the other night watching the new Die Hard, I asked dad if her wanted to come over to watch it after work. He came over, but not after I sent him on a mission. I have been dying for Mexican food! NOT that Tex-Mex mess- REAL Mexican Food. There are two places that have made my list: El Toro, for take out ( I’m addicted to the Chili Rojo de Puerco and guacamole salad), and El Jefe, for dine in. I made dad swing by El Jefe to get me fried scallions, also known as cebollitas. I’m on a mission to find out just what the spices are that season these onions, so I can try to make them at home. Anyone got any ideas? From what I can find on Mr. Google, its just lime juice and sea salt… That just sounds too simple.

In the midst of keeping things simple, I reached in the freezer and pulled out two Healthy Choice meals Dad and I had gotten a while back.

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The cebollitas were perfecto with The Salisbury Steak meals! Although these meals smelled great, I really was not impressed. The eat was small and a little tough, there wasn’t much flavor to the gravy, the mashed  potatoes are never a good idea in any frozen meal, but  I always enjoy the veggies.

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It was interesting having both my parents watching the movie with me, all of us getting along.

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Snacky-Sammy began to set in, in which I ate a Special K Chocolatey Pretzel cereal bar. Barry came over after work and ordered Chinese food for dinner, so did Frank and my brothers. I ordered a small hot and sour soup, shocker, and stole one of the guys dumplings (I love that dipping sauce!) Thinking f I treated myself to a small craving, the urge would go away, Barry and I picked up Reese Whoppers. Thats right, peanut butter coated malted milk balls! A few of these, and I was set!

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Moms mood quickly change after my dad left. She went to the store and returned with this:

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I immediately approached her about the recent conversation we had regarding bringing home trigger foods, and she began accusing me of telling her what to do. I’ve said it before, its just not easy when you are not surrounded by support.

To take my mind off the full pizza sitting on my kitchen table and the minor anxiety that followed my soup, I cooked. I decided to whip up some homemade mustard sauce to be used in a recipe later this week. (By the way, be prepared for a few Bundo-ized comfort foods).

I promised this recipe about a month ago, so here it is. Its actually my moms recipe, that I altered. Every party we host or attend, this mustard is always requested. Yeah, its that good! My mom’s recipe calls for  sugar and  eggs, and very un-precise measurements of the remaining ingredients.

When I made this for my grad party, I used a 50/50 mix of Splenda and sugar, last night I tweaked it a bit more. The granulated Splenda, as awesome as it is, does not have the same melting point as sugar. The more sugar, you use in this recipe, the silkier, the mustard looks. I’ve made this before using all Splenda, and the taste does not change. The mustard just looks a bit thicker, rather than silky.

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yields approximately 3/4 cup

3/4 cup liquid egg substitute

2 Tbsp white sugar

1/4 cup, plus 2 Tbsp granulated Splenda

5 level Tbsp of Colemans dry mustard powder

pinch of salt

1/2 cup distilled white vinegar

WP_003239Combine all the ingredients, except vinegar and blend until smooth. Allow the blend to sit at room temperature for at least 30 minutes, reblending the mix, occasionally. Reblending and settling at room temperature ensures the eggs do not immediately cook once over the heat and the flavors are evenly distributed. In a small pot, over the lowest heat setting, pour the mustard in. (Scrape the sides of the bowl to make sure you get all of the blend in the pot- every drop counts). With a spatula, continuously scrape the sides of the pot and stir the the mustard, until it begins to thicken. Once the mix begins to slightly stick to the spatula, pour in the vinegar and continue to scrape the sides of the pot and stir continuously. This is the longest process of the recipe, but the end result is worth it. Continue the stirring on low heat to ensure the eggs are fully cooked and the vinegar cooks out.

WP_003241The mustard continues to thicken and take on a sheen (The more sugar in the recipe, the shinier the mustard). Once at a smooth thickness, pour into a separate bowl, cool, and refrigerate for storage.

Nutrition per 2 Tbsp:

Calories: 51, Fat: 0.7g, Sat. Fat: 0g, Cholesterol: 0mg, Sodium: 43.1mg, Carbs: 4.5g, Fiber: 0g, Sugars: 3.4g, Protein: 2.2g

This mustard is probably one of my favorite condiments! I’ve put it on grilled cheeses, grilled chicken breast, and later in the week, I will be crusting a meatloaf with it! Stay tuned and enjoy!

Never Too Old for Animal Crackers

After yesterday mornings excitment, I enjoyed sleeping in this morning.

Last night, Barry came over during his lunch break from night shift, around 9pm. I greeted him with a chicken sandwich, from the left over chicken we grilled the other day, a tray of broccoli and cheese, a chocolate chip cookie and a chocolate cheesecake for work, that mom had had picked up from Wholefoods.

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After Barry left, and some studying, I laid in bed for about 2 hours tossing and turning. As tired as I was, I just could not fall asleep. I think that having a disagreement with my mom, yesterday, on top of Beaut getting out, really ampted up my anxiety. I felt similar to when I was really sick… I would lay in bed, up until all hours of the night, planning my meals for the week, stressing about calories… planning my every move for the coming days.

Finally, I fell asleep!

This morning began with a shake for Frank and myself. The tricky thing about cafe latte flavored shake powders is that besides bananas, flavoring syrups are typically used to flavor them. But I like fruit in my shakes, darn it!

I used to work in a nutrition store, and a really popular shake was the Carmel Latte shake. Wanting fruit plus a little pick me up, I experimented with a Caramel Apple Latte shake.

  • half a fuji apple (about 3/4 cup), chopped, preferrably frozen
  • 1 Tbsp sugar free caramel Torani syrup
  • 1 scoop Herbalife Cafe Latte powder
  • (1/4 tsp xanthum, optional)

Not to shabby…

After Beauty’s escapades, yesterday, and some time to kill before work, I ran to the pet store to get a new name and address tag for her. It was a toss up between a pink heart and and Eagles tag. While she went to pull out the pink heart, she found a pink heart with the Eagles logo on it! Score! I think Beauty has learned her lesson, though, at least for now, because she has been a sleepy pup since she came home. While at the pet store, I also snagged her one of her favorite canned foods, as well as a free sample.

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I felt so silly while on my way to work, today. Its 95 degrees outside and I’m in a long sleeve shirt… in a car without AC…

I swung by Dunkin for an iced coffee on my way to help cool me off. (I wear longsleeved shirts to work because its always cold!!!!) It was much needed!

I arrived at work a bit early, which gave me time to cool off and grab my assignment for the night. I was in a 1:1. That shake this morning really filled me up! I didn’t have much of an appetite at all today! I finished up the left over brussel sprouts from the other night (lightly drizzled with yellow and honey mustard), and celery sticks and peanut butter for snacking. Around 6pm, when I took my dinner, I was very hungry! Luckily, I spotted animal crackers! I don’t care how old you are, but you are never too old for animal crackers!

I was surprised by how hungry I was, but I hadn’t been very hungry since my shake, so I guess I shouldn’t be that surprised. The important part, is that I recognized that I was full and I stopped eating before I lost control. Recovering from binge eating, just like anorexia or bulimia, has no boundaries. Eating disorders can strike anytime, anywhere.

Once my shift ended, I came home and snacked on some Fiber One 80 Chocolate cereal, but soon found myself nibbling on many items. I finally tasted that kick from the KIND Dark Chocolate Chili Almond. After realizing that I was beginning to have a mild binge, I quickly jumped to a warm glass of flax milk and began this post.

I’m In Love

Its official. I’m in love… with a little boy I’ve been caring for at my clinical site. Some of the children at this site are up for adoption. I would take him home in a heartbeat! In fact, the nurse said that he could totally pass for my son, and when his family came to visit, I said “come on, lets go see your mommy!” He ran to me! Ugh! Every time  his family held him, he cried and reached for me! Hes melting my heart.

If only…..  ❤

Since today is a long day, I wanted to start my day with some caffeination. A started another chilly morning with a shake. When I use this liquid, I don’t like the icey consistency  that it makes, so I add guar gum to smooth it out:

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1/2 half frozen banana

1/8 tsp guar gum

This kept me going for the morning, as did a cup of hot green tea. Lunch was welcomed this afternoon: A salad, carrots, onions, green peppers, topped with chicken, sunflower seeds and sugar free honey mustard dressing! I love this line by Maple Grove Farms! Their sugar free balsamic vinaigrette is to die for!

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After clinical post conference, I hit the gym and completed a workout. I drew this up during some free time in clinical.WP_001404

It began and ended with 5 minutes on the elliptical, riding backwards. A 20 minute interval treadmill workout was samwiched in between two strength circuits. The progression of events look something like this:

Elliptical– 5min- 11 resistance (backwards)

Strength

Sitting Crunch 53 lbs 60 reps
Chest Press 25 lbs 60 reps
Leg Adductor 50 lbs 60 reps
Double Crunches   25 crunches
Bicycle Crunches   25 crunches
Tricep Extensions 30 lbs 60 reps

(I could really feel the burn in my arms and legs!)

Treadmill

Minutes

Speed

Incline

1-4

4

8

4-8

4

12

8-10

6.5

1

10-12

7

1

12-15

4

8

15-17

6.5

2

17-20

4

8

(I love the incline! Just like last time, as soon as I hit the 6 minute mark, sweat started pouring down!)

Repeat Strength

Elliptical– 5min- 11 resistance (backwards)

On my way to rehearsal, I tried a new Fage 0%: Apple Cinnamon Raisin. Of course, flax accompanied this to play off the autumn tone of the yogurt fruits.

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My eating was fantaabulous today! I was so proud of myself! Until the munch set it. I didn’t have anything else to eat so I stopped by Rite Aid. My favorite candy was on sale for 88 cents! Its normally almost 4 dollars!

That was my mistake. I went to town on some sugar free Russell Stover’s candy and finished off a bag of Teddy Grahams. Grrrrrrrr!!!!

Other than this binge, today was great! I’m really starting to feel like the nurse I want to be!