MMMM Mallows

I was nervous that the universe did not want me to sleep, today. Dad rand the door bell and then called me at like 9 am. “Open the door.” You have a key! I fell back asleep. Twenty minutes later, my phone rang. Its mom. I had sent her a picture of the cake from work last night, and she started asking me questions and saying how sweet it was that the girls celebrated our accomplishments. Thats what you called me for? I’m sleeping, woman! I was beginning to think this whole sleep thing wasn’t going to happen.

I threw the covers over my head and that was that. I was out until my alarm went off around 1230. Barry and I both had doctors appointments so we went together. I was a bit nervous to get weighed. Here was the verdict. My last appointment was Aug 9th and I weighed 134.5 lbs. Three weeks later, I weigh 128 lb. I’m not sure how accurate that is, but thats as low as I want to get.

Barry and I ran a few errands and I decided to stay in tonight so mom and I could hang out. When I called her to ask about dinner, her response was, “Don’t cook for me. I’m not hungry.” I became furious. What kind of example is she setting for me? She wants to lose weight and she doesn’t understand that not eating is not the way to do it. The alternative occurrence is that I cook dinner and mom brings home a hoagie. I would have loved a hoagie, thanks for asking, but now I can’t because I already ate. And now I’m in a funk because I feel like I’m depriving myself. It sounds so dumb, but its how my brain operates. I told her I wanted to talk, tonight.

She left work at 4pm and did not come home until close to 8. She wouldn’t answer my texts or voicemails. I was so hurt. This isn’t the first time I’ve broken plans with Barry only to be be stood up by my mom. She finally arrived home and all hell broke loose. With the history of my moms actions and addiction, her recent behavior has become nerve-wracking and worrisome. Things did not got as planned tonight.

Backing up a bit…

I couldn’t quite place what I wanted to eat for dinner, I just knew I wanted it warm. After some investigating, I shopped up the last bit of cabbage, that I new was going south soon. Dad loves my cabbage hash, which was the inspiration for my dinner. After making golumpki, a polish dish, I had the smaller tougher leaves of cabbage let. I choked them down, threw some spices and hot Italian sausage in a pan and voila! Cabbage hash has been a Bundo favorite!

Sweet and Spice Cabbage Hash

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  • 1 link chicken sausage
  • 1 1/2 cups cabbage, any type, chopped, packed
  • 2 Tbsp chopped onion
  • 2 Tbsp chopped bell pepper
  • 2 1/2 tsp Sweet Asian Chili sauce
  • 2 tsp chili garlic sauce
  • 1/2 tsp chili powder
  • 1/3 to 1/2 cup water
  • a few baby carrots
  • a handful snow peas

Slice a link of chicken sausage lengthwise. Slice those halve in half, lengthwise. Chop the sausage strips and combine in a skillet with chopped cabbage over medium heat and cover for 5 minutes. Add the chopped onion, pepper, sauces, chili powder and 1/3 cup of water. Toss and recover for 4 minutes. Add additional water, as needed. Lastly, add carrots and snows peas, toss mix, reduce heat to  medium-low and recover for a final 2 minutes.

Serve up and enjoy.

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I almost made some quinoa too go with it but I didn’t think I’d be that hungry, but its a great idea to add some cooked quinoa the last few minutes of so of cooking to absorb some sauce flavors.

I really enjoyed the sweet and subtle spice, with the crunch from the carrot and peas. Plus, it was really filling.

While still waiting for mom to get home, I took advantage of National Toasted Marshmallow Day. In honor if this, lets have a childhood flashback to the best smores instructions ever!

I knew I had a tacky bag of mini marshmallows, so I scooped a dessert spoon with some, and roasted it over the open flame of the gas stove. I like mine burnt! (see the fireball of sugar, below) I smeared the gooey glob on a reduced fat graham and topped it with a drizzle of sugar free chocolate syrup for a make shift smores. MMM theres nothing like a smores!

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WP_003726WP_003727After the dilemma with my mom, I was drained and ready to relax. I made a mug of diet hot chocolate, spiked with cinnamon, vanilla, and a scoop of Arctic Zero Chocolate PB, and am currently engaging in the blog-esphere.



Nurse Cake

WP_003707As my night shift was coming to an end, my stomach began to growl around 5am. I ignored this feeling the best I could. Around 530, I caved to a sugar free fruit cup. So sue me. A 45 calorie, sugar free fruit cup is whats going to upset me? This is ridiculous.

Around 6am, some nurses began to feel the hunger. Some toast english muffins, other trail mix, but it helps me to know that I am not the only one that gets thst end of shift hunger, and it makes me feel even better to know that I made a light and wise choice of food.

Arriving home about 2 and half hours later, the 45 calorie fruit cup had worn off. I snacked on half a slice of the left over Chicken Cheesesteak Pizza, another 45 calories. How can I hate myself for that? Its like I ate a 90 calorie snack bar, but instead of it being cereal and granola based, it was fruit and veggies! Get with the program, Sammy!

I stood in the shower, praying, deep breathing, almost like I was trying to wash the eating disorder and anxiety away. I finally laid down and slept until about 4pm, Thursday (8/29)

WP_003710I woke knowing I needed to eat despite my current feelings about my body. I went with a Dannon Light&Fit Greek Key Lime yogurt and topped it with some Special K Protein cereal. Although the cereal didn’t add loads of pizzazz of flavor to the yogurt, I enjoyed the crunch and texture, and the added feeling of being full. I paired it with a large glass of sparkling water.

The remaining afternoon was spent wallowing in my own depression, laying on the couch, curled under a blanket, until Barry came over after he was done work. He spent a few hours with Frank and me watching movies. I know it wasn’t the way he hoped to spend his evening, but it was nice to have the moral support.

My dad expressed some more concern about me today. I can’t help the way I feel. The last 3 days, I have not eaten more than 600 calories. Frank suggested this could be a reason why I’ve been so tired lately. I was in the bathroom and looked at myself. All I could see, at first, was my stomach. I kept poking at at it like it was somehow pop like a balloon and deflate. I went to the scale that read 131 lbs. I like that number. I went back to the mirror to figure out why the number just didn’t seem match the body. I stared long and hard and realized that my face was beginning to thin out, again.

With an annoying headache, which I suspected to be from low blood sugar, I stir-fried some bok choy and mushrooms in 1/2 Tbsp of low sodium teriyaki sauce,1 tsp chili garlic sauce, and a splash of water. It was filling and helped rid of my headache, which was definitely what I needed before going to work.

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I headed to work, coffee in hand, still feeling like I was dragging. Its funny how as soon as I walk onto the unit, I change. I’m so lucky that I am one of those blessed people that loves their job and the people they work with! Speaking of which…

These ladies I work on night shift with completely took me by surprise! After finishing the first rounds of my 8 hour shift, I went to the break room to grab a drink. As I opened the door, the nurses were setting up a party… for Heather and me in honor of us passing our boards!


The first thing I saw was the cake and covered my instant terror with a smile, saying, “You guys are so sweet!” They even got gluten free goodies for Heather! But then, I saw the veggie platter and salsa and fruit bowl. Heather mentioned that she could tell I had lost weight and that she was worried about me. Heather is one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met. I would love if Heather and I both got the newly available nursing positions for our unit.

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WP_003717After finishing up some rounds, I decided theres no harm in enjoying fruits and vegetable. An the the veggies with salsa! MMM so garliky! I continued to snack on the goods all night and even had the hot and sour soup I brought with me. I was stuffed by 3 am and stayed that way! I felt great! Like I had been revitalized! Suddenly, although I was full, I felt invigorated and was on a roll at work! I love that Heather was so honest with me. You know what? I even had a bite of cake. I’m not a cake fan, but ShopRite done good! The night shift crew put a good hurtin on the cake and fruit!

The shift ended strong and confidently and I cant wait to hit the sheets!

Nutella with Raspberries

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As Barry headed off to work, I slept in for a bit until getting up to meet Frank at the farmers market at 9am. Breakfast was small and quick, as I was still shockingly full from last night. A Creme Brulee sugar free rice pudding and large glass of sparkling water sufficed.

We ran a few errands, and just as we were loading up the the truck at the last stop, the cloudy sky opened up and poured! It poured for hours! When we got home and unloaded, I headed to bed for night shift and when I woke up from my 3 hour nap,it was still pouring! In fact, it stopped just long enough for me to run the recycling and trashcans out and get to my car for work. 5 minutes after being in the car, it started pouring, again! Then, on my way from the parking garage, as I made a run for it, I saw the creek was almost to the top! Talk about rain!

The smell of Frank’s cooking is what woke me up this afternoon! I love his stir fry, so while I sat down to my snack, I stole some veggies and shrimp from the skillet. Hey, I had to make sure it wasn’t poisonous!

Frank and my dad had voiced some concerns the last few days. My dad mentioned that it looked like I was loosing weight, again, and he wasn’t pleased. This afternoon, Frank talked to me over my yogurt, as said he was worried about me. “You look on the pale side, and your WP_003705soft spoken. You’re starting to worry me. I’m not used to you being so quiet. You’re usually so boystrous.” He’s right, though, I haven’t felt myself the last few days. In fact, I’ve been doing nothing, but stressing about food! Maybe its because I was surrounded by food all weekend, and this was my way of feeling in control? I’m not quite sure, but its nice to know that I have my dads and Barry there for me.

Backing up to the yogurt. It was like a was fiending for caffeine! I had a bowl of light coffee yogurt, and crumbled half a Gnu Espresso Chip bar on top. Yum! I was definitely digging it and it really filled me up.

After changing my meals about 6 times, today, I decided to pack things that I could burn off over my shift: Be Well Nutella on toast with raspberries, steamed broccoli and petite carrots and celery sticks.


I was clerking for the first 4 hours of my shift and as usual, my 10pm hunger was kicking in. I tried desperately to ignore it, but one of the guys, here, kept talking about how he wanted to get a Baconator! Oh man! Yes, please! That was it. I grabbed a pack of graham crackers and ate them with a bit of PB to keep me going until my 2 am lunch break. I have to say that as soon as I swallowed the last bit, I immediately began a guilt trip on myself!

The reminder of the shift was spent on the floor. The nutella and raspberries are great, by the way!

My Mug Overfloweth

I was greeted with some disappointment, this morning. As Frank and I headed out for our bike ride, I discovered a flat tire! My bike ride was cancelled for today, but luckily I was hungry.

In honor of National Banana Lover Day, I whipped up a Banana Creme Pie Shake Bowl, with a handful of spinach.

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  • 1/2 to 1 frozen banana
  • 2 scoops vanilla protein
  • 1 to 1 1/2 Tbsp sugar free fat free Banana Creme Pie pudding mix
  • 1/4 tsp xanthum (optional)

I enjoyed this bowl while sitting on the porch and chatting with Frank! It was a beautiful morning with the sun shining and a light breeze.

For some reason, despite my cup of coffee, I could not wake up today. I tried keeping busy until Barry came over on his lunch brake. I saved him some of the Chicken Cheesesteak Pizza from last night’s dinner. It was his first experience with a cauliflower crust and he liked it. I think each time I make the crust, I get better and better at it.

WP_003700As noon approached, the sun began to hide and a mildly grumbling tummy came out. Frank made a tuna sandwich for himself and I finally gave into my nutella desire with a slice of oatmeal toast and Be Well Nutella. It hit the spot and was just enough to satisfy my hunger.

The entire day was spent in an odd funk. I just could not get with the program. Frank and I watched movies all day! I was quite lazy, but maybe my body just needed that.

Dad came over for dinner before I headed to Barry’s. I had picked up cebollitas at the farmers market and had been itching to make them. They are typically made on a grill coated in salt and olive oil. Every time dad and I go to a Mexican restaurant, we go to town on these babies, and we always dip them in the chorizo con queso! This was my first time making the cebollitas and they could not have turned out any better!

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  • 8 cebollitas
  • 1 lime
  • 1/2 tsp, divided, plus 1/8 tsp seasoned salt

Heat a cast iron grill pan, or skillet if you do not have a grill pan, on medium to medium high heat. While the pan is heating up, snipthe top stems of the onions down until there is about 2-3 inches from the bulb. Spray the pan with non stick cooking spray and lay the onions down. Sprinkle1/4 tsp of seasoned salt over the onions, followed by squeezing half a lime over top. Quickly cover the onions with a lid. After 5 minutes, turn the onions to the other side,sprinkle the remaining 1/4 tsp salt and squeeze the other half of the lime. Recover and cook for an additional 5 minutes. Removed the lid and toss the onions every 3 minutes or so for an additional 10 minutes. On the last toss, sprinkle the last 1/8 tsp of seasoning salt. Serve them up!

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Dad and I ate our with a bowl of soup! It was one we had never had before by Campbell s, but it is definitive one we will be getting again! Campbell’s Chunky Kickin’ Buffalo Style Chicken Soup was creamy, with a kick of buffalo sauce and blue cheese flavors! MMMM! And I dipped my cebollitas in there and the creamy consistency worked great as a substitution for the chorizo con queso! The soup even had carrots, tomatoes, celery and potato like the classic home-style chicken soup.

Dad wanted a grilled cheese on the side. I’ll tell ya, just the soup and 4 cebollitas kept me full for the rest of the night!

I met up with Barry, still feeling in a haze, but being with him and getting out of the house helped perk me up. His house was bareso we headed off to the grocery store, as opposed to my usual Tuesday night Zumba routine. We are spending the rest of the night in movie mode.

One Slice Wit Wiz

Today began with a plan: Refrain Run to the store, grab cat food, swing by the garage and grab my bike, put air in the tire, ride it home and enjoy a shake. Things went just as planned, except for the fact that I left the key to the garage at home. Yay, for Frank being awake because he ran it over to me. It inspired him and he proposed that he grab his bike and we ride together! After walking our deflated bikes to the gas station, we rode them home.

I forgot the muscle groups biking works. My quads hated me! It was so great to see Frank on a bike! He was smiling, and really enjoying himself! This brief little bike ride set us up for a great day of decisions!


While I prepared our shakes, Frank brewed some coffee. I made Frank a Banana Blondie shake, which is just the Blondie recipe with a banana, and a Butterfinger shake bowl for me, which is a Blondie shake with chocolate protein mix, rather than vanilla. I threw a handful of spinach in mine for a little added vitamins.

After some conversation and mild house chores, and preparation for tonight’s dinner, Frank and I sat down to lunch. A yummy salad! I threw my random, last piece of tempeh from the fridge, the last of the olives, and sliced the last of the onion to make my light lunch. The picture kind of looks like a face…


I don’t know about you, but I LOVE a good cheesesteak! What  I don’t love is the typical carbs, fat, and excessive calories that go with it. With my new Chicken Steak-Umms screaming my name from the freezer, this was created!

Chicken Cheesesteak Pizza

serves 4-8

The Crust:

  • 1 md to lg head of cauliflower, chopped
  • 3/4 cup fat free shredded mozzarella cheese
  • 1 tsp garlic, minced
  • 1 tsp oregano
  • 1/2 tsp parsley
  • 1/2 Tbsp corn meal

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  • 1 md bell pepper, sliced
  • 1/2 md onion, sliced
  • 1 cup mushrooms, chopped
  • 1 tsp garlic, minced
  • 4 slices Chicken Steak-Umm
  • black pepper, to taste
  • 2 Tbsp fat free shredded cheddar cheese

The Wiz:

  • 2 Tbsp non fat sour cream
  • 2 slices fat free cheddar cheese

Preheat the oven at 400 F. Steam the chopped cauliflower. Drain and transfer to the food processor and briefly pulse the cauliflower until it is riced. Combine the warm riced cauliflower with the shredded mozzarella, liquid egg, and spices.

Spray a pan well with non stick cooking spray. Add the sliced peppers, cover with a lid, and allow to cook for 9 minutes on the lowest heat. Add the sliced onions, minced garlic, chopped mushrooms, and black pepper, recover, and maintaining the lowest heat setting, allow the vegetables to cook down for 15 to 20 minutes, stirring occasionally.

WP_003693Sprinkle a heated pizza stone or pizza pan with the cornmeal and spread the cauliflower dough evenly over top to form the crust. Bake for 20 minutes. While the crust is baking, remove the steamed vegetables and give them a rough chop. In the pan used to make the vegetables, tear the chicken Steak-Umm slices, season with pepper, and cook. Get your hands messy and toss the chopped vegetables and chicken together.

WP_003694By this time the crust should be done. Remove the crust from the oven. Using a spatula, ensure the crust is not sticking. Sprinkle the shredded cheddar on the hot crust. Then, top with the vegetables and chicken steak mix. Return to the oven for an additional 10 to 12 minutes.

Remove from the oven. In a microwaveable cup, break the slices of cheese and sour cream. Microwave for 30 seconds, stirring every 7 seconds or so. Drizzle the wiz over the pizza, slice, and serve!

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We ate dinner with big refreshing salads. Dad topped his slices with crushed red pepper flakes. Dinner with my daddies!


Haha! I told my dad that dinner would be ready as soon as I “drizzle my wiz.” He said, “Okay, Snoop. Drizzle your wizzle, dog.” Hahah!

To end the night, Frank and I sat on the porch and enjoyed a sugar free Cherry Popsicle for National Cherry Popsicle Day!

Its early to bed, for me tonight. I am quite sleepy. See you in the AM.

Ciro is 5!

My morning started out the way I love to start my Sundays: with Church! Today, was special, though, because Barry went with me! It means a lot to me to be able to share something so personal, like my faith and Church family, with him.


WP_003666After mass, Barry and I came home, after a brief stop at my uncles, for a little breakfast. I was heading to a party in a few hours, but was definitely hungry. I made an egg with spinach and salsa to hold me over, and a veggie omelet for the boyfriend.

After parting, I drove to celebrate Frank’s nephew’s 5th birthday! I love Frank’s family! Plus, Cal’s family, his niece, is Filipino and make yummy food! There is always a nice spread. On the menu this year was lamb and feta sliders with tzatziki, grilled chicken and bratz, mei fun noodles, veggies, fruit salad, cookies, blueberry cobbler, hummus, barley salad, pork lumpia, seasoned potatoes and more!

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I made sure to fill up on loads of celery and fruit!  I was feeling pleased with myself.


Cal really outdid herself on the desserts. Everything was Angry Birds themed for Ciro. Cal baked carrot cake cupcakes, red velvet cupcakes, and the most delicious Angel Food Cake I have EVER eaten! I typically despise Angel Food Cake, but Cal’s was airy, light, and delicious! I, of coursed, begged for the recipe! Frank and I split the carrot cake cupcake and a small slice of Angel.

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We only get to see the family a few times a year, so I love catching up with everyone and being interrogated about the whereabouts of Barry! That was my fault :/ I didn’t know I could bring him. Haha!

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WP_003688After meeting up with Barry and providing him with party delicousness, I was so hungry! But why? I had drank a bottle of water, and decided to try some fiberful steamed broccoli with garlic powder to curb whatever I was feeling. Despite finishing another bottle of water, I still felt hungry. I snacked on some of my moms trail mix, making sure to stay within a serving size, which is so difficult with trail mix!

I began to fell anxiety, so I called dad. He has helped ease my mind enough where I can now fall asleep!

Good night blogworld!

Our New Deacons

It was all about the Barry’s and berries, today.

It began with a stop at 7-Eleven to grab coffee and a light breakfast. I spiked my coffee with my sugar free blueberry Torani, before heading to Barry’s. Look, His and Hers blueberry breakfast! Barry loved blueberry poptarts so I liked that I was able to enjoy my version of poptarts with him with the blueberry Special K Crisps.


Today was a day of celebration for our diocese! I am so happy to say that our friend, Barry, was ordained, along with 8 others, as a Deacon. It has been a 5 year journey for him and his family. Its such as admirable dedication he has made to our community. I know that he has gone away for for retreats every month for the past 5 years, working for this.

Barry is not only a family friend, but also the owner of the company my dad works for. While dad manded the fort at the business, Barry, my Barry, and I represented the family at the ordination. We arrived at St. Margaret of Scotland Church, and after giving hugs and kisses to familiar faces, we took our seats.

The ceremony lasted about an hour and a half. He began with his family, garbed normally. Throughout the mass, we witnessed Barry promise to the Church and be sworn in as a Deacon.

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We watched the Bishop lay his hands on each candidate, swear them in, and provide them with their own Book of Gospels.

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We watched the priest of each candidates home parish, along with the candidates wives, help to dawn them with their stoles and dalmatics. It was a lovely ceremony!

WP_003654I ran into my parish’s priest, who is also the Chancellor of the Diocese, and was one of the selected few to provide Communion to the congregation. I also saw my old grade school principal, my parish’s deacon and wife. My favorite person that I ran into, today, was Dora. When I saw her, I immediately began to tear up. I hadn’t seen Dora in about 5 years. Dora was one of my grandmother’s best friends, one of the “Club Girls” as they were called. Every Thursday, the girls would get together with their bags of pennies and play Pokeno and Uno, and eat jello and pie, and various fruits and sweets. I loved catching up with her!

WP_003655After the mass, their was a gathering at the Church’s school, but Deacon Barry’s family invited us to attend the luncheon they were having at a local Italian restaurant. The reservations were not until 2pm, and Barry and I decided to kill an hour at the farmer’s market. This place is a dangerous place for foodies! The Amish section is full of sweets, pastries, meats, sausage, and all around deliciousness! Before leaving, I needed to introduce Barry to one of the oddest, savory, and sweet desserts I have ever had. There is a Mexican ice cream shop in the market that sells Cheese ice cream. You read that right. CHEESE ice cream! It smooth and creamy, a little chunky from the cheese, like cottage cheese curds, and so buttery in your mouth! We both just wanted a bite since we were heading out to lunch, but its a when-in-Rome kind of thing.

We arrived at Cucina di Napoli and were greeted by Deacon Barry and his family. We sat down to a table full of apps: Bruschetta, mussels in white wine, sauteed broccoli and spinach, mozzarella sticks and fried calamari, and chopped antipasto salad. Dad met us there after he locked up the shop, and we enjoyed socializing with everyone. I was pretty pleased with my eating! I stayed clear of the bread and butter, ate lots of lettuce and tomatoes, enjoyed some mussels, and broccoli, and avoided the fried foods. Thats a lie. I ate 1 fried calamari to apease my dad. Barry and I were both dragging, despite our coffee earlier in the day.

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Barry and I parted ways until he picked me up to attend a BBQ. Barry has kept in contact with one of his old teachers from high school who throws a pretty bitchin pool party every year. It was such a nice time! Barry and I both had a few drinks and I was so pleased with my eating! I chose wisely. I knew there was going to hot dogs, and not my 94% fat free ones. Rather than eating it plain or on a roll, I grabbed a leaf of romaine, spread it with a little black bean hummus, and topped it with corn salad. It was delicious!

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??????????????I stayed clear of the ridiculously gooey, chocolate chunk brownies, but I did take a bite if the PBJ mini cupcakes. I was so proud of myself that I filled up romaine and didn’t let the temptations get to me. I met some of Barry’s friends from high school and when I met Kevin, I saw a side of Barry I had never seen before! A complete and total BROMANCE!

Towards the end of the night, as we were heading out, the homemade moonshine and karaoke came out. One of the moonshines was peach and the other was apple. I’ve had homemade shine before, and it was rough, but the apple smelled like an apple pie! Both were delicious.


The night ended with Barry and I falling asleep to a little Twilight Zone!

No Alcohol Required

Ladies, this one is for you.

Today’s post is all about mother nature’s all natural hangover.

The Period.

I woke up this morning, feeling better than last night, but still not really with it. I realized that this hazy feeling I’ve had for the past few days reminds me an awful lot of a hangover.

The Headache

I called out of work last night because I had one heck of a menstrual migraine! I couldn’t open my eyes and it began to make me feel nauseous. No Bueno.

When you drink too much, that migraine can last all day and seriously debilitate you! I remember one time, my first hangover, I woke at my friends house, felt terrible, immediately drove home, and called my mom on speaker phone, crying the whole way home. Terrible.

The Appetite

Just like the almighty hangover, periods make us chow down or step back. Last night, I wasn’t hungry, but still had cravings. Today, nothing looks good.

I wanted to start today with dessert, shocker! I’m a sucker for a good brownie, but give me a good Blondie and I’m puddy. This morning was a Blondie Bowl and cup of coffee!

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1-2 scoops vanilla protein powder

1 Tbsp sugar free fat free Butterscotch

1/2 to 1 Tbsp toffee pieces

1 tsp peanut butter



1/2 to 3/4 tsp xanthum

The Dehydration

Part of the reason women feel so tired, aside from the hormones, is that fact they they’re dehydrated. With by current lack of an appetite, I’ve been trying to stay hydrated and have drank loads of fluid!

The Mood and Emotions

What happened last night? Did I do that? They broke up? What tone is it? Who through up in the front yard? She drunk dialed him? Why is everyone yelling? What did I drink? Are they mad at me?

These are the things you say after an intense night.

What happened last night? Why is my make up smeared? How long have I been sleeping? Wow, that pain killer worked. I just want to cry. Everything hurts. Why are mad at me?

This is what you say at that time of the month.

See the similarities? Emotional roller coaster!

The Fatigue

Can you guess what I did today? Absolutely nothing! I laid on the couch. I fed the animals, but thats about the extent of my movement.

The Bloat

Water retention. That’s what we tell ourselves so we feel better about our skinny jeans not fitting so hot. Unfortunately, if beer was I evolved, this is the case as well.

When Alcohol DOES Get Involved

It turns into a hot mess! Everything is heightened and you become even more irrational, more hungry, more tired, more dehydrated, and that headache can kick your butt!

Name Change

I am no longer Sammy Bundo. I am Sammy Bundo, R.N.!


This morning (Aug. 21, 2013) began with a phone call from Barry.

“I have question for you.”

I have one for you. Why are you up? (He just finished night shift)

“I had to pee, but it this Samantha [Bundo], Registered Nurse, License Number L1…….?”

What?! No!



My official license had been issued and posted on the State’s registry! I began screaming, smiling ear to ear! I called my parents and whipped up two shakes! For me, a Mixed Berry Colada. I’ve really been digging  my sugar free Coconut Torani. Yesterday was National Chocolate Pecan Pie Day and I was curious to see if I could make a Pecan Pie Shake:

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  • 1/2 md apple, chopped
  • 2 Tbsp chopped pecans
  • 2 Tbsp sugar free pancake syrup
  • water
  • ice

Frank was really into it!

As we sipped our shakes, I called my managers at work to share the news! But, boy, did they have news for me! There is a very strong possibility that he has a job opening up on my unit for me! I am beyond excited! With all this adrenaline running, I could not fall asleep to rest for my 12 hour shift, tonight!

I laid in bed for like 4 hours before giving up and preparing a celebratory dinner! Frank had mentioned earlier in the week that he wanted Chinese food. I talked him out of the temptation and promised to make homemade for him later in the week. What better day to have a quick, and wonderfully indulgent meal, than in honor of a celebration?

Barry arrived at the house around 430pm with a nice little surprise, and my parents quickly followed behind him from work.


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I follow the Hungry Girl recipe to the T except for the egg and flour coating. Since I don’t, typically keep scallions in the house, I substitute them with chopped onion, and I always make sure to include the chopped onion and 1/4 tsp crushed red pepper flakes to the sauce as it cooks and thickens. As for the coating, I find that 1/4 cup of liquid egg substitute  and 2 1/2 Tbsp whole wheat flour suffices for 1 1/4lb (20oz) of cut chicken breast.

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With the bit of mixed vegetables left over from the Chicken Pot Pie, I made a make-shift fried rice, I cooked 1 cup of brown rice and allowed it to cool. I added the rice to a skillet, along with soy sauce, sesame oil, ground ginger and garlic, left over vegetables, chopped onion and mushrooms. Lastly, I added the remaining egg from the drained chicken breast to the mix. To finish off the meal, I steamed broccoli and garlic.

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We finished socializing at dinner just in time for dad to walk me to my car and see Sammy Bundo, RN, off to work.

When I arrived at work, everyone was congratulating me. It turns out the managers had posted signs around our unit! They did a great job of killing the spelling of my last name, but its the thought that counts!


I am finishing up my can of beets, finally, with another salad of onion, bacon tempeh, carrots, and Walden Farms Bleu Cheese dressing. A rice pudding came with, as an inevitable emergency end of shift snack. The end of shift snack actually became my 4-hours-in snack, while grahams became the end-of-shift snack.

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WP_003614I spent my first 4 hours in my 1:1 from the other night, and the remainder of the night on the floor. The night felt like it was dragging. I was sleepy and cramping, and it felt like my coffees were switched with the decaf stuff! When 7 am came around, I was ready to roll! I stopped for an actual decaf and passed out on the couch. I felt bad because I was going to meet Barry at his house, but apparently my body had other plans.

I woke around 1pm to get something in my stomach. Since today is National Eat a Peach Day, and I didn’t have an actual peach, I had an Activia Greek Peach Orchard yogurt topped with sunflower seeds, and reheated what was left of the mornings decaf. I love the earthy, nuttiness the seeds add to yogurt!

I fell back asleep to wake around 5 pm. I didn’t have much of an appetite but my stomach was tossing from a menstrual migraine. I haven’t had one of these in years and i felt my forehead was bulging. I explained it to Barry like this:

steinYou know how Frankenstein has that big forehead, like with the protruding eyebrow looking things?


Its like that… like my forehead is taking over my head.

Your forehead feels like Frankenstein? Well, I’ve never heard a headache described quite like that before…

I wound up calling out of the shift that I had picked up. I toasted an cinnamon raisin breakfast thin, and spread it with cream cheese and sugar free blueberry preserves. I added chopped celery to one side, for crunch, and a slice of Canadian bacon, for salty protein, on the other. I ate it like a sandwich and it was delicious!


As the night went on, the headache went awake, and my appetite, and cravings returned. I went with another Lil’ Drum to satisfy the crunchy sweet, and a side of pretzel sticks for the crunchy salty. I spent the remainder of the night watching Four Weddings. (I love this show!)

Tooty Fruity and Hydrated

WP_003587I don’t know why, but on days that I have shakes, I always feel well hydrated!

I began this morning with a bit of refrain running as I made my way to Church. I couldn’t wait to share the news with Fr. Hurley! I made great timing and wound up sitting outside for about 30 minutes, waiting for the Church doors to open.

Dad was right… never leave at home without cash. I didn’t anticipate the time. I could ave grabbed a coffee in the waiting time.

But good things come to those who wait. After mass, I walked over to the cemetery to talk to my grandparents. While I waited for dad to make it there, I sat on the curb. The landscaping guys drove over to see if I was okay. It was pretty awkward trying to explain that I WP_003591was talking with my grandparents and waiting for dad.

When I arrived home, the wilting spinach in the fridge was screaming to be used! Green shakes for Frank and I, today.

An Green Apple Cheesecake shake for Frank, and a Green Colada, for myself! Delicious!

Along with the shake, was a cup of coffee and a Vitamin Water. Like, I said, hydrated!


I want to take a brief second to explain the importance of staying hydrated. I’ll begin with a few examples:

When I was in prime eating disorder time, I was incredibly dehydrated. It affected my muscles, my reaction time… It got to the point that I had not had a bowel movement in 8 days, I was grey and weak, completely uncomfortable, and was in the ER for 10 hours with an open IV line. I was simply there for hydration. I was pumped with about 3 L before I was discharged. I would stand up, and have to sit back down. I would already be standing, and my vision would get so blurred and I would feel so light headed that I needed to lay on the floor. I really scared my dad a couple times. It was to the point that this was even happening at work.

Last week, at Zumba, I mentioned that a girl felt light headed and she was lying on the ground. Its because she was dehydrated, not only from sweating, but because she had donated blood about 6 hours before class.

Our bodies are naturally fueled by water. Think about it, up to 70% of our bodies are made of water! Scientist believe that water is the source of life, from which species are born. It acts as the medium for all our cellular processes to occur.

Water is needed to help digest, rid your body of waste, absorb nutrients from your food, send signals, lubricate joints, regulate temperature… Water is an important part of life.

For the weight loss followers, it helps to drink lot of water because it makes you feel full and you eat less. It also helps burn fat. The temp of the water really doesn’t matter. Any water is better than none. Thank goodness for those Dasani and Crystal Light squirty things because plan water can get really boring. I’ve drank so much fluid, today, I feel like my belly is a bag of water! Last night, after Zumba, I slammed so many bottles of water, I woke up every 3 hours to pee! Hahah!

Lunch was eaten all throughout the day. I actually finished off a huge fruit salad from 7 Eleven.

You guys are getting alot of TMIs, today, so let me make it up to you with a yummy comfort food recipe that everyone is your house will love!

Chicken Pot Pie

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  • 8 ramekins, or 2 9 in pie plates


  • 10oz chicken breast, diced to bite size pieces
  • 5 cups frozen mixed vegetable
  • 2 10.75oz cans 98% fat free Cream of Celery condensed soup
  • 2 tsp dried chopped onion
  • 1/4 tsp black pepper
  • 1/2 tsp ground thyme
  • 1/4 tsp chicken/ poultry seasoning, optional



Preheat the oven to 350 F. Meanwhile, over medium heat in a skillet sprayed with nonstick spray, cook the diced chicken breast with the seasonings. Toss until all the chicken is just cooked and none have stuck to each other. Transfer the warm chicken, with any juice produced into a large bowl with the condensed soup. Add the mixed vegetables and thoroughly combine. Spray dishes with a non stick cooking spray and divide the mixture amongst them. Place the dishes in a shallow pan (a roasting pan or pyrex should work) and fill the pan with a cup of water. Place the pan in the oven and bake for 15 minutes. Give the soupy mix a stir and return to bake for another 15 minutes.

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Meanwhile, working in two batches, work on making the crust. Roll, with hands, 3 pieces of dough, and using a rolling pin roll out into 4 circles, or one large circle if using a pie pan.  Repeat this step with another ball of 3 crescents. 

Remove the pan from the oven, and carefully seal each ramekin, or pie pan, with your dough. Sprinkle the top of the crust with the garlic powder and return the dishes to the oven, still in the water pan, for 20 minutes, until the tops of golden brown and flaky.

Remove from the oven and dig in!

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Each serving is around 240 calories. I was told this was one of the best dishes I’ve made! There was only once complaint! They wanted more!

Just like the pot pie, who doesn’t love pantless? Haha! I had to sign off with another TMI!