Better Day

Today, I woke up starting new. I headed off to a bust day at clinical. Wow! I kept busy! Today was trach change day: scary! I did so much today: suctioning, meds, g-tubes… It was awesome!

Breakfast on the go was a Fiber-One Oats and Caramel! So sweet and chewy!

I was craving caffeine today. I actually wound up drinking like 3 cups of coffee!

When clinical was over, I headed to campus to complete a workout! I was excited for this one:

I began with 5 minutes on the elliptical, cycling backwards, then went into a short spurt of strength

I then completed Julie’s Incline Walking Workout. I was out of breath at the beginning, but as soon as I got to 6 minutes, I could feel the sweat.

I repeated the strength and then finished with another 5 minutes of backward elliptical at 11 resistance.

After a shower, I headed to the mall to exchange those dresses that I was spazzing out about the other day. I have never been more focused during shopping. I grabbed every black dress on the racks! and success! Not only did I find a dress for Thursday, but also a dress for the show I’m in, 2 belts for my black dress, a matching headband, and a blazer! I love the discount rack!

Dinner was so improvised! While at the store, I saw a box of instant miso soup. Next thing you know, I got a cup of hot water and I was sipping on soup in the car.

Then I headed to practice, and home I went. I can’t wait to hit the sack because tomorrows another long day!




Tamale Pie: Crock Pot Recipe #10

Yay! We did it! 10 new crock pot recipes before the end of February!

Dad seemed super excited about this one! He actually found this recipe.

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serves 8

Filling Ingredients:

1 lb lean ground beef
1 lb lean ground turkey

3 Tablespoons chili seasoning
1/4 teaspoon onion powder
2 cans (14 1/2 ounces each) stewed tomatoes, cut-up
1 can (14 1/2 ounces)  beans , drained and rinsed (1/3 dry beans, then partiallycooked)
1 can (4 ounces) chopped fire-roasted green chiles
1/2 cup water
Cornbread Topping Ingredients:

1 box (8 1/2 ounces) corn muffin mix
1 cup fat free shredded Cheddar cheese

Brown ground meat in large skillet on medium-high heat; drain.Place ground beef in slow cooker. Add chili seasoning, onion powder, stewed tomatoes, beans, chiles and water. Mix all ingredients well.Cover and cook 8 hours on low.

Then prepare the cornbread topping. Increase the heat setting to high. Prepare corn muffin batter as directed on package. Drop batter by spoonfuls on top of filling in slow cooker. Cover. Cook 30 minutes longer or until toothpick inserted into center of cornbread topping comes out clean. Turn off slow cooker. Sprinkle cornbread topping with cheddar cheese,  cover for 5 minutes longer until cheese begins to melt.

I browned the ground beef last night, so this morning I could just dump everything in the crock and skidaddle off to clinical.

Mom and dad both enjoyed this. I needed to add hot sauce.  Next time, I think I’ll add another can of chiles. It must have been good though, because I’ve never seen my mom eat so fast and ask for seconds!


After clinical, I planned on stopping by campus on my way home to take advantage of their gym… well, with all the construction, I missed the exit… Therefore, I decided to tackle another day of Couch to 5K. The pace picked up on this one with longer intervals of running!

Although the day started off great, it ended miserably. This eating disorder reared its ugly head, again. Its amazing what the min can do. I actually ate and ate with the intention of purging. I so I purged.

I can’t figure out why this is still happening. I’m spiraling down and I feel like I’m falling deeper. I try so hard to remember mantras to keep my head up but theres always that other voice in my head, reminding me how much I’ve failed myself. This is all so new to me.

Double the Crock Pots, Double the Fun: Mexican Chicken: Crock Pot Recipe #9

This is so funny! I’ve never had dueling crock pots before!


This is the easiest of all the crock pot recipes of this challenge. Since breakfast was  a bit more involved, I’m  glad this was a simple one. And just like the roasted vegetables, the possibilities are endless!

Mexican Chicken

serves 4

12 oz boneless, skinless chicken breast

1 jar salsa, or 1 1/2 cups

1 packet low sodium Taco Seasoning

Remove the fat from the breast and lay in the crock pot. In a bowl, combine the salsa and taco seasoning. Pour over top of the chicken, cover, and cook on low. When ready, remove from crock pot, shred with two forks, and place back into crock pot until its time to be served.

Is that simple or what?!

I used a jar of Southwest Black Bean and White Corn salsa. Dad really wanted soft tacos, but I couldn’t help but create a salad with mixed greens, shredded chicken, fat free shredded cheddar,  and a few Guiltless Gourmet Spicy Black Bean tortilla chips.  I stuck with the mexi- theme and combined some avocado with some fat free sour cream and cilantro for a dressing!

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Rave Reviews! Dad went back for seconds! (so did I).

I’ve been in a kind of freak out mode! I have some dresses that do not fit me anymore! Ugh! This is the worst feeling a girl with an eating disorder can have! Situations like these really make a girl want to relapse. The worse part, is that I have to energy or motivation to get moving! The weather has been super crap-tastic lately, so I have not been able to go running and the house just looks so dark and gloomy without any sunlight. Thank God today was a nice day! It was the first day in a while I could walk outside without gloves and a scarf.

I’m hoping this dress incident can snap me back to normal eating habits!

Pumpkin Cinnamon Buns: Crock Pot Recipe #8

I could not resist when I found this on a vegan recipe page!

I prepared everything this morning and headed to Church. (Yes, I woke up early on my day off). When I arrived home, after a run, the smell of fall spices was in the air!

I prepared them Sammy style, but check the original recipe for the vegan way.

2 cups whole wheat flour
1 cup all purpose flour
1/4 cup granulated Splenda
1 package active dry yeast
1/2 cup unsweetened flax milk
1/4 cup water
3/4 cup Libby’s pure pumpkin
1/2 cup unsweetened apple sauce
1 Flaxseed egg (1 TBS flaxseed to 1 1/2 TBS warm water, let it sit for 5 minutes)
1/4 tsp sugar (to help activate the yeast)
Filling Ingredients:
1/3 cup unsweetened applesauce
2 Tbsp plus 2 tsp Splenda brown sugar
2 tsp ground cinnamon
2 tsp nutmeg
1 tsp ginger
1 tsp ground gloves
Icing Ingredients:
4 oz fat free cream cheese, soft
2 1/2 Tbsp granulated Splenda
1/2 tsp vanilla extract
Prepare flaxseed egg. Combine flour, sugar and yeast in a large bowl. Fold in milk, water, pumpkin, flaxseed egg and applesauce into dry ingredients. Form into a ball and let it sit in bowl, covered with a towel, for 30-45 minutes. Roll the dough into a rectangle on a lightly floured surface.
Mix together filling and brush the dough with it.
Roll the rectangle long side to long side and pinch the ends to seal. Slice the log into 12 to 14 rolls.
Place in wide and very well sprayed crock pot and cook on high for 60-90 minutes. Use a toothpick to determine if fully cooked.
Mix up icing and pour over hot rolls. Top with pecans, walnuts, raisins, or what ever you’d like.
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I went for a quick run to knock out another day of Couch to 5K. I’m hoping that this helps fuel me for a productive day.
Dad came over after Church to enjoy these sticky buns and a cup of coffee!
The Verdict: the consistency of the buns were perfect and I could not believe how much the buns grew; however, there was too much clove for the tastes of this family, and not enough sweetness. This recipe has tremendous potential and dad and I are excited to play around with it. (Dad is like a little kid when he bakes… he loves cookie cutters!)
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Don’t get me wrong, these things are most definitely edible, but they need some work.
When I was ready to roll the dough, I searched high and low for the rolling pin. Then I remembered I left it at my dads house…
So I laid down some plastic wrap over the dough and improvised.
Thank you, Libby!

Bakeri Bake-Off

Yesterday, I mentioned I made one of my favorite breakfast/dessert recipes. I can’t wait to share it with you.

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When I visited Meaghen, back in December, she took me to this quaint coffee shop called Bakeri. It was small, everyone was incredibly friendly and you can watch the food being made right in front of you. They had scones, muffins, cookies, quiche, brownies, focaccia, sandwiches, and so much more! My first morning in Brooklyn I enjoyed some sort of caffeine that I let the expert order for me, a snicker doodle and lavender bar, and a delicious coffee cake!

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The back yard


such a tiny shop


the inspiring breakfast

This recipe is a great way to use up that fruit thats turning a little quicker than you want it to. I’m pretty proud of this recipe, too! Baking is not for everyone, its a real science and this is the first baked dish that I measured out and created solely on my own.

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serves 12

2 very ripe pears

2 medium very ripe apples

1 1/4 cup fat free sour cream

1/2 cup finely diced walnuts

1 Tbsp Brummel and Brown Yogurt spread, or butter

1 cup granulated Splenda

1/2 liquid egg whites

2 cups Presto self-rising cake flour, measure after sifting

1 cup whole wheat flour

1/4 cup unsweetened applesauce

1 tsp baking soda

1/2 cup whole frozen cranberries


1/4 cup Splenda brown sugar

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1/3 cup Fiber One bran cereal, measure then pulse in processor until fine

1 tsp cinnamon

2 tsp vanilla extract

2 Tbsp unsweetened applesauce

1/2 Tbsp ground flax (optional)

1 Tbsp granulated Splenda

Combine sour cream through baking soda. Dough will be thick. Stir in the cranberries. Spoon a little less than half in a 9 x 9 baking dish that has been sprayed with some non stick spray. Spread the thick mixture evenly over the bottom with a spoon and ensure it reaches the corners. Let this layer settle, while roughly peeling, coring, and thinly slicing the apples and pears. Spread two-thirds of the sliced fruit over the settled layer of dough. Pour the remaining dough over top and spread evenly. Top with the remained fruit and pat fruit into dough with fingers.

Combine the ingredients for the streusel (brown sugar through flax) in a bowl and mix well. Using you hand, sprinkle to sticky mixture over the cake. Sprinkle the white Splenda evenly over top.

Cover the dish with foil and bake for 20-25 min at 350 F. Uncover and lightly pat down the streusel and bake for another 20-25 min.

Cut into 12 squares while still warm and enjoy!

WP_001257Facts:   1 serving (1/12 recipe)

Calories: 225

Fat: 3.3g

Sat. Fat: 0g

Cholesterol: 0mg

Sodium: 368 mg

Carbs: 40.8g

Fiber: 3.9g

Sugar: 9.4g

I love how the tartness of the cranberries pairs with the sweetness and earthiness of the apples and pears! Its the perfect amount of sweet! This can be eaten room temp or warmed up. (I like slicing a piece in half, warming it in the microwave,  and adding a side of vanilla ice cream to make it a dessert!)

If you are ever in Brooklyn, I suggest Bakeri! Its quaint and cozy, friendly, and all their food is made with love! I can’t wait to go back!

Today, I was supposed to meet up with Katie, my sponsor to work out… but tell that to my car…

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After some more procrastination, I finally got myself to sit down and watch a bit of a  lecture.

PS. Bakeri’s cookies are to die for! Salted chocolate and cherries!



Enjoy your Saturday!

Low-Carb Pizza

I loved sleeping in this morning!

I didn’t want to eat anything too heavy this morning, so I pulled out another new yogurt to try: Chobani Key Lime Crumble Greek yogurt. When I bought it, I thought “mmmm grahams and yogurt.” When I peeled back the foil, I noticed white chocolate chips in with the graham!



I sprinkled a little ground flax on top to play off the graham! Perfecto! Sweet, tart, crunchy!

My girlfriend Megan (not Meaghen from NY, Megan from clinical) told me about this recipe awhile back and I knew it was a must-make meal! Megan is someone I guess you could say admire. Shes a runner and lives a very healthy lifestyle. She also is one of the people that helped smack me back into reality with me eating disorder. Because of her, I found running as an amazing outlet for my crazy days! Thanks, Megan, not just for the recipe, but for helping me find myself again, the healthy way.

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1 md head of cauliflower, riced

1/2 cup fat free shredded mozzarella

1/4 cup liquid egg whites

2 cloves garlic, minced

spices, to taste

I used Italian seasonings like basil, oregano, black pepper, garlic, and parsley. Give this a good mix and spread onto a pizza stone or baking sheet and bake at 400 F for about 20 min.

Remove from the oven, and top with whatever you please. Since its a Friday during Lent, I’m utilizing yesterday’s crock pot recipe and topping the crust with roasted vegetables, pesto,  2 sticks, grated, of Weight Watcher’s smoked mozzarella, and another 1/4 cup of shredded fat free mozzarella!

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The original recipe calls for 1 cup of cheese, but I used 1/2 and chopped it into smaller pieces to ensure it was equally spread throughout.

Everyone really liked the unique and crisp flavor of the crust! This meal was a big hit! We already started discussing other ways to play with the recipe!

I was the queen of procrastination, today! Rather than watching lectures, I loaded the dish washer, cooked and baked, unloaded the dishwasher, re-loaded it with the dishes I had just made, got on the phone with dad to harass him about when her was coming over for dinner, cleaned off the kitchen table, and right as I was going to go back to the lectures, dad came over… good timing!

I baked one of my favorite breakfast/desserts! I had it for the first time in NY with Meaghen, and wanted to play around with it to make it myself! Success! I’ll share the recipe to my Cranberry Walnut Apple Pear Crumb Cake with you tomorrow! (I say dessert because its great warm, with a scoop of vanilla froyo!)

I’m off to study!

Roasted Vegetables: Crock Pot Recipe #7


I went to class this morning and while waiting, enjoyed a Muller Mousse Parfait. A girl I’m in clinical with loves these, so I gave it a try.

WP_001225I tried the peach passion fruit, figuring if I was going to try something, I might as well try the most exotic sounding. I topped it with both ground flax and chia, and it was delicious and filling! I only have one complaint: way too much sugar! Seriously, it had a whole days worth of sugar in it!

After this cardiac cram session, I hit the gym. I had a full workout planned but as I was doing it, I realized I was not going to be able to complete it, if I needed to get some sleep for night shift. I only worked out for an hour or so. I was so bummed when that I had to leave. Have you ever been so into your routine, you just didn’t want to stop. Seriously, even the shuffle on my iPod just kept giving me great songs to power up to!

I hit the sheets when I got home, unfortunately  only getting about 2 hours of sleep for my 12 hour shift. I made something that was LONG overdue: a shake. Iv’e been checking up on this blog I found and she made a shake that sounded delicious, so I gave it a go. The following was whipped up:

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handful of frozen, pitted dark cherries

1 scoop Herbalife Vanilla Formula 1

1 scoop Herbalife Vanilla PDM

half a frozen banana

1 Tbsp sugar free cheesecake pudding mix

and lots of ice!

Pretty darn tasty… Actually, dad asked me to make him one for Thursday morning!


Over the course of the long night, I did some pretty wise snacking choices, suck as graham crackers, sugar free pudding, and 94% fat free popcorn. I have to same, though, my favorite meal of the night, was the Raisin and Spice Oatmeal. I stirred in a little PB, and mmmmmm good!WP_001231

After I got home, I started preparing the crock pot. Tonight’s recipe is in preparation for tomorrow’s dinner (I can’t wait!)

Once all the ingredients were in the crock, I sat down to finish some homework and enjoyed a nice bowl of Banana Nut and Peanut Butter Cheerios, a cup of Pumpkin Spice coffee with some sugar free french vanilla powdered creamer and a few dark chocolate covered espresso beans to keep me going for the day!

Katie loves crock pots too and I remembered a while back she posted about roasting vegetables in a crock pot. Being the sucker for veggies that I am, I starting thinking up ways to use these veggies. Over rice? with sausage? In a pita? The possibilities are endless! Needless to say, I hit up the discount produce shelf…

Roasted Crock Pot Veggies

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3 cloves garlic, slivered

half an onion, sliced in rings

a few baby portabellos

1 large carrot stick, sliced into very thin coins

handful of sun-dried tomatoes, sliced thin

1 small eggplant, sliced to 1/4 in thick

spices, to taste

Prepare all the vegetables, adding or subtracting vegetable that you enjoy, and toss them in the crock pot. Season, cover, and cook.

The original recipe calls for oil, but instead, I just gave the top of the veggies a quick spray with some non-stick pray and few shot a liquid aminos. I couldn’t find my Italian seasoning in the cupboard, so I used some granulated garlic, black pepper, parsley, oregano, and basil, and gave it all a nice toss.

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During class, I was starting to sense some hunger creeping up on me. I looked around the room, and wouldn’t you know like four people were chopping on protein bars! AHHHH! I knew this would be tough!

When I got home from class, the house smelled like a warm garden… fresh veggies in the air! I hustled into the kitchen to give them a stir and a try. I was so happy with how they turned out! The carrots were just the right consistency  the onions became translucent  the peppers and mushrooms cooked down, the tomatoes got soft and sweet, the eggplant absorbing all the flavors…

I had some leftover turkey sausage to I put a little in a tortilla with some veggies and I was in heaven! This most definitely will be a meal another night.WP_001237

As for tonight’s dinner, I was jonesing for a Wendy’s Jr. Hamburger, and mom was really eyeing up the chili. My creation was a chili dipped burger! YUM! I snacked on some mixed fruit for dessert!

Over all, the last 24 hours was pretty decent with food… only a few minor binges.

After meeting up with Mike to finish our assignment, I tried to squeeze in a workout before being detained in nursing labs for 3 hours. I was able to squeeze in the following workout, based off of Julie’s Beat Boredom Interval Workout:


Sitting Crunches 15reps 4 set 53 lbs
Tricep Extensions 15reps 4 sets 20 lbs
Sitting Crunches 15reps 4 sets 53 lbs


0-10 min 11 resistance
10-1230 13
1230-15 14
15-20 11

Repeat Weights


1-5 minutes 4.2 speed 8 incline
5-630 7 1
630-8 5 1
8-10 4.2 1

Now, I ready to crash, wake up refreshed, workout, watch some lectures, and cook you all a wonderful Friday Lenten dinner!Even though, I was totally sleep deprived, I did not want to leave. These last two days I’ve really been in the workout zone!

When It Rains, It Pours

No, really… Its pouring outside…

Even though I went to sleep around 8pm last night, I woke up feeling really uncomfortable and immediately got sick. I decided I was to tough it out, since I did no want to miss any clinical. While at clinical, I got sick and got really flush and the nurse sent me home. I was so disappointed because this nurse was going to have me administer medications and respiratory treatments!

I headed home and crashed for a few hours. When I woke up, I still felt gross. I finally smacked on some apple that i had packed for lunch to see how that felt. The remainder of the day was mostly carby foods. They just made me feel better… Like crackers, bread, and popcorn.

And once again, no gym for Sammy! Grrrr! I have class in the morning so I hope I can get to the gym after class.

Tomorrow will be another weird scheduled day…

Just like last Saturday, I will be working a 12 but this time, on night shift…
I’m hoping to get some reading done for school…

Tonight, I also decided on what crock pot meals I will be making this weekend to close up the crock pot challenge! I’m so excited!

Like Its My Job

One thing that drives me crazy about getting off work at 11pm is that I’m typically asleep at that time. By the time I get home, my belly is growling. Last night, I tapped into the Reduced Fat Cheez-Its like it was my job!

Ugh! I can’t win!

Since I went to sleep late, getting up early for clinical was not exactly easy. I hit that snooze alarm like it was my job! Today has been pretty good though! I started my new rotation and I love it! Its just like being at work, surround by all these little kiddos! I even got to suction a trach today!

Before I left for clinical, I popped an Apple Crumb VitaTop into the toaster oven, and topped it with some PB2.

I packed myself a roast beef and swiss sandwich with some baby carrots for work. The dijonaise really made the samwich! I started driving to school to use the gym, but just kept yawning. I decided against the gym today and I’d do a workout at home. WP_001218

When I got home I enjoyed some almond butter and apple. This is probably one of my favorite snacks!

Dinner was so simple! Left over soup. It was the Progresso High Fiber Chicken Tuscany. It was really filling!

I needed to pick up some staples for the kitchen, plus, if you haven’t noticed, I’ve been slacking on the crock pot recipes and the end of the month is right around the corner.

Warning: Crock Pot recipes will be taking over this blog!

Anyway, dad and I headed to the grocery store and it gave me a brain break from studying.

The workout never did happen, by the way… You know what did happen? Cereal snacking… like it was my job! Since I have practice for a show I’m in tomorrow, I won’t be home all day, which means my butt is working out!!!


Working a Twelve & Some Serious Cereal


I did not have much of an appetite this morning when I woke up, so I headed to work with some snacks, just in case. Lunch was healthy… pineapple and cottage cheese. The other day mom bought a pineapple and it was so sweet and delicious, she ran back to the store and bought 2 more! I’ve been in my pineapple glory!

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When I got to the unit, Julie was there with my girl scout cookies. I totally forgot I ordered these. Down the hatch went some do-si-dos. Those are some dangerous cookies!

Later, I made a bowl of oatmeal, that I actually meant to eat earlier in the day. I find that with a lot of instant oatmeal, with berry flavors, they are just too sweet! I mellow it out with some ground flax. I’ve never tried this oatmeal before, so I did not know its sweetness. I have to say though, the flax made it all the better!


I never actually wound up eating dinner tonight. Not because I was too busy to eat, but because a certain chica (myself) ate a few too many cookies… and got a belly ache.

Silly Sammy… oh well, at least my dinner for tomorrow night is already at work.


I went home, craving real food! I wound up eating a bowl of cereal and some pineapple.

I lectored at Church this morning and it was really nice to see some friends I hadn’t seen in a while. Deacon pulled me aside to tell me how worried he was about me and how happy he was to see me put on weight. I like to hear things like that but I’m definiately ready to get rid of this belly I put on.

This morning, I ate a packet of Quaker Cheddar Grits. When I first opened the packet, the chedder smell reminded me of the Easy-Mac cheese.

it doesn't look too appetitizing but it was

the grits don’t look too appetitizing but it was

Even though its been sunny, the wind chill was just too cold for me, so Day 5 of Couch to 5K was out today. Instead I did a 12minute warm-up with Dave Sinclair OnDemand and followed it up with  Julie’s Jump Rope n’ Abs Workout.

I’ve really been on a serious cerel kick, lately. Every time I go for a snack, cereal is the winner. For lunch, before I headed to work, I finished off my Cinnamon Pecan Special K cereal. If you recall, I said earlier that I did not care for the cereal with milk, but by itself, its a keeper. Well, the same goes for Kashi’s Berry Blossom cereal. I had a bit of each left and decided on a combo deal. YUM! I don’t know if the Special K tasted better because all the nuts and cinnamon settled to the bottom of the back, or what, but it was tastey!

Dinner was what I did not eat last night: Lean Cuisine Chicken with Basil Cream Sauce. Ialso steamed some frozen oriental vegetables to soak up some of that excess sauce. I added some black pepper, like I do with most things. Myfavorite part of this frozen meal was the Italian green beans! This isn’t a favorite meal, but the added veggies helped and I could eat those green beans all day!


Dessert came with a little sugar and some staying power. A granny smith with some hospital PB made its way into my tummy.

on some lovely Vday plates

on some lovely Vday plates

I start my new rotation tomorrow morning at a new clinical site. I’m kind of exciting since the place does similar work to my actual job, but the paperwork looks a little intimidating.